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Words fail me. But without words, what am I?

by any chance …

… i’m not supposed to write down anything here, for my mind turns into its utmost state of emptiness, causing, or rather, leaving me with no possession of inspiration at all.

for sure i could just close my laptop and turn myself to dvd player, after all, alain resnais’s “last days in marienbad” is due tomorrow.
but then, i have certain doubt that it will be on par with his “hiroshima, mon armour” which ranks as one of the most graceful love films ever conceptualized on a big screen.

ah, this is the most personal entry i’ve ever penned in my whole blogging life.

well twinnie, don’t get me wrong, but the battle-of-tacky entries of ours have to remain as best-kept secret which, for sure, would preferably be consumed on our own. whereas they’ve become public viewing or condemnation sparking from jealousy, that’s something beyond our control, right?

and up to this paragraph, isn’t it funny how you can actually just utter anything you wish to speak out by just placing your fingers in the keyboard, and slowly, surely, your tips of fingers start touching each and every letter assigned on the keyboard to form words into sentences, sentences into paragraphs, paragraphs into a posting or two.
it wouldn’t do any harm though if a little much-needed distraction of adium pops up here and there, saying things like “temen gue bakal nginep di rumah semalem” or “gue sudah baca remains of the day dan ga seberapa suka“, although the latter may give me an alert.
how can one not to fall under the spell of charm lined up in subtleties of kazuo ishiguro’s victorian style of narration?

oh well, again, we are placed in the world of overflowing mass products of arts and literature which often leaving us with little choice except to accept them hesitantly.
why hesitant?
i just feel like writing that, actually.

accuse me of being lame for my inability in providing some mind-challenging defense, but i can’t help looking at my stack of books and dvds which i haven’t touched, let alone reviewed. the thing is, i don’t want to surrender and leave my brain outside when i enter the world of cinema or words. i always seek for every single opportunity to venture myself inside those man-made world, looking for a chance to enhance my uppance.
look, most of the time i fail in making rhymes, so you’ve gotta bear with my weird sense of poetic structure.

alritey vin, i know you’ve been complaining too much on how lengthy each and every posting i’ve always made here (does a name of dody ring a bell to you, dear? *ngibrit*), but seriously, i need a bigger box for my main posting here.

care to teach me how?

 
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Posted by on 06/12/2005 in English

 

Mr. & Mrs. Smith


At the end, you can only think of the beginning.

Such a simple line uttered by John Smith (Brad Pitt) to her wife, Jane Smith (Angelina Jolie) in one of the car-chase scenes in Mr. & Mrs. Smith, which is plainly uttered in a regular manner as what Pitt usually does, turns out to be some slipped subtlety we might wonder here.

Is this really the end of Hollywood glamorous era?

Never before in recent releases a film is capitalized on the glitz presence of its leading actors who are portrayed as what and how their images are projected off-screen.
Never before in recent releases that a film charms its audience for the sake of the actors who do not act to be on their own easily.
The latter point might bring the fact that, as hesitant as it might be, never before in recent releases that a film is perfectly cast.

Mr. & Mrs. Smith

Yet, if we look back at the old Hollywood days when scriptswriters are masters and directors are kings in putting their signatural marks on witty and smart scripts, this kind of practice had been done in the early years of the century.
People flocked to see Cary Grant doing the best impersonation of himself, to be seduced by Marilyn Monroe in whatever film she was in, and this topic will not complete without mentioning the legendary pairings of Katharine Hepburn-Spencer Tracy and Lauren Bacall-Humphrey Bogart. A consummate thespian on their own, when they were paired, audience saw the chemistry between each couple as the result of what their projected images off-screen were: Hepburn, a strong willed lady to be charmed by Tracy’s gentleness and patience, and Bacall as a debonaire, mysterious lady to be melt by Bogart’s rough-yet-tender sensitive old guy.

It might be way early to place Pitt and Jolie alongside the legends, but judging from their banterings and unspeakable ease of performing to and for each other, we can’t help but smiling all through the entire duration of 110 minutes without even at once bothering about illogical plots. This is a well packaged summer blockbuster film: explosive action, gorgeous cast that even looks larger-than-life thanks to nicely done shot that seem to make both of them being ripped off from any glossy fashion magazine, and the wits spoken convincingly as if we really see Pitt and Jolie have been performing together for a number of times.

Mr. & Mrs. Smith

To think that the whole film relies on its own star presence is surely a reminiscence of the good glorious old Hollywood days, which leads us thinking how star powers these days are being set aside, making a way for mindless CGI effects. The film might not be the best for its own genre, but to keep the treatment from dying completely, it is sure an applaudable effort.

 
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Posted by on 06/08/2005 in English, Film

 

How Smart Are You?

Recently, the cool girl doing un-cool job in the coolest office on planet earth has given us this riddle. See if you can do ’em all!

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and this one

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The key is simple.

See the first picture? You should answer it as “Seven Seas”. 7 Cs, got it?! 🙂

What about the rest?

 
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Posted by on 06/08/2005 in English

 

what is it with the month of june?

exactly!

can someone enlighten me with some relieving replies on my query about ‘what is it with the month of june’?

What's On June?

the question was simply triggered from some, i would say, distracting facts:
– my twinnie is having a “writer-block” (usual, but there’s gotta be something causing it),
– my housemate chooses to spend the weeknites daydreaming instead of hovering holland village for dinner (unusual, but i guess i may contribute something in it because …),
myself, suddenly feel sick and get tired of holland village (static.)

in blogging world itself, i bear witness to some “hibernation” period from some bloggers known for their witty words that i can’t have enough of. come back when you’re used with Linux, girl! you sure have loads of stories to tell from your travelling, Yos! one of the most self-loving bloggers only wrote a song instead, Li? and hasn’t it been some time, Ko?

for me, it’s been quite some time since the last time i wrote down my thoughts on films i reel myself into. of course you can still see my post on Inside Deep Throat below, but you might be surprised to know that i actually had watched the film way before i wrote down my piece of mind about it.

there are not many films on current release arousing my interest.

tell me whether this is coincidental or not, but if you are a film-buff who reads everything about film in newspaper, magazine or any news media available to you, you may notice that the ticket sales and cinema attendance in the United States has been declining for 15 weeks in a row.
i just can’t pretend any longer: it’s about time, you fool, brain-damaging Hollywood!

an article in NY Times examined how recent movies failed to deliver the hype or much-needed controversy which, i agree, would build up audience’s interest not only go to cinemas and watch the films, but more importantly the post-watching effect. they can discuss the films, or simply talk about it among friends and families, which will prompt them to revisit the films.

we had a tame romantic comedy in Hitch, which only made us longing for the magic of Sleepless in Seattle.
we could only wonder why the studio execs decided to make Guess Who, only to find that the original version made almost 40 years earlier had more daring effect.
we began to think that Pixar is unbeatable champ after watching the failures of Madagascar and Robots.
and do we care about The Pacifier? impotent sequels like xxx2? endless horror remakes a la House of Wax? finally, paris hilton is killed.

but come to think of it, unintended buzz like what The Passion of the Christ enjoyed last year might come only once in a blue moon, or rages over Fahrenheit 9/11 only happens periodically *grin*, but these elements are what lured us into cinemas to cheer and to bash at the same time, and to some extent, watching it over and over again.

had there been no Star Wars installment this year, what a dreadful blockbuster it might have been.

and don’t blame us if we turn to other alternative sources.

thankfully, european films are still made with sincerity, although people begin to get wary of korean style of sleaziness. as long as those films do not brand themselves as ‘another-asian-horror’ films, then it should be fine.
indonesian?
let’s just say that for one that just woke up from a long sleep of coma, then suddenly get euphoric over sweet-flavored candy, wait until its get dizzy from having too much saccharine all over the screen. quantity wise, good enough though.

so what is with the month of june?
nothing but big bang summer blockbuster films, and let’s keep looking for alternatives.

writing? just continue rambling.

 
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Posted by on 06/07/2005 in English

 

it is like … love, actually.

and so it is.
in some ways that we indulge,
or rather,
plunge into it.

(seluruh hidupku
selamanya)

when the existence of universe changed by the time an answer has been uttered without even questioning,
then we can only wonder,
whether sparks will continue blinking
or rather
a steady light will shine throughout the journey

(segalanya teramat berarti di hatiku
selamanya)

so take it that we choose the steady light
yes, we sit, we talk, we make love, we exchange sweet tender words
but there are times when we get up, when we cast our glances towards the other side of view
when we choose not to know, not to quench the thirst or not to ignore

love ties the loosening binds without gripping too hard.

 
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Posted by on 06/05/2005 in English

 

Jump!

Jump!

Jump! Jump!
You jump, I … watch you jump!
Dah ga jaman hari gini ngomong “you jump, i jump” ah! *sambil muna ga mau ngaku kalo nonton pelem Titanic 3x, hihihihi*

Anyway, gue cuman pengen berheran-heran aja ama diri gue sendiri, yang udah terjadi beberapa hari belakangan ini. Simple aja, gue ngerasa jump improperly to live in a big city.

Improperly? More like unorganized, actually.

You see, dari kecil sampe gede, gue lahir dan dibesarin di Malang, kota yang udah ngga dingin lagi, yang menghasilkan beberapa selebritis yang benernya ngga pantes disebut disini macem Cindy Fatika Sari (idih!) ato Krisdayanti (walopun dia ngga di Malang persis), tapi yang lebih penting lagi, beberapa seleb-blogger yang pantes disebut disini macem Qyu, Bowo, dan tentunya, -nauval himself- dong ah!

Dan harus gue akuin, bagaimanapun juga Malang ini kota kecil, meskipun sempet gue kekeuh sumekeh kalo Malang itu kota besar, karena kalo dapet Adipura, selalu dapet kategori untuk kota besar. Ngomong-ngomong, masih ada kah penghargaan Adipura buat kebersihan kota ini?

Sampe ketika kuliah pun dah nyaris mengabdikan seumur hidup di Malang, tiba-tiba aja koq dapet kesempatan lepas dari kota apel ke kota Singa (Singapore toh negara kota ‘kan?), dan disinilah gue dah mengabdikan diri gue selama 5,5 taun dari mulai kuliah sampe kerja sekarang.

Separuh dekade.

Serem juga kalo dipikirin angka itu.

Makin serem kalo ngeliat bahwa benernya gue ngerasa ada satu bagian yang “kurang” karena gue ngga ngelewatin satu filter yang entah penting ato engga: tinggal di kota besar, di negeri sendiri.

Yup, gue ngga pernah tinggal lama sampe menetap di Jakarta. Paling banter 2 bulan, itu juga lebih banyak di rumah, di Bekasi.
Dan begitu gue tinggal di kota besar, itungannya udah negara lain.

Gegar budaya yang gue rasakan, untungnya sih, ngga se-shock seseorang yang langsung masuk sini dan bekerja, karena gue melalui proses belajar dan hidup di lingkungan kampus, yang notabene bukan representatif bagus buat ngeliat ukuran hidup seseorang di suatu negara karena atmosfirnya kan academic-oriented yang cenderung all-provided, but it’s better than nothing though.

Justru gegar budaya yang gue rasakan adalah tiap kali gue ke Jakarta, karena bagaimanapun juga, gue selalu melihat Jakarta dari sudut pandang ‘orang kampung’ ato ‘orang udik’ yang masih kebingungan dan ecstatic ngeliat bright, blinding lights of the city.
Sementara itu, Singapore adalah tempat kenyamanan dan kemapanan gue. Kemapanan disini bukan berarti gue financially rich or whatsoever (komputer aja masih ngutang!), tapi lebih kepada behavioral settlement, ato dalam kata lain, the minute I step my feet onto Changi Airport, I know my way to get to my home without troubling anyone, I know how to feed myself without begging on the street and I know how to eat to live.

Hmmm … Postingan ini emang agak absurd, ga kaya biasa-biasanya, tapi yang jelas, gue semakin memaknai kata-kata klise ini:

Look before you leap.

 
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Posted by on 06/03/2005 in Bahasa Indonesia

 

Inside Deep Throat

If you think the reason why I made this posting is related to the revelation on the mysterious identity of Watergate-whistle-blower, then I’m afraid to say that you get it wrong this time. Check the history book again, and you’ll find out how Mr. Felt got his infamous nickname.

As infamous as the source itself, which brought the porn film scene to be recognized as a new promising industry.

Our parents or our elder relatives might not be able to recall Deep Throat when it was released back in 1972, but at least they came across the phenomenon of how sex became something that lured people to go to the movies.
Mainstream film industry reached its ultimate exposure towards sexual permissiveness, when what had been considered as taboo topic suddenly being shown on the big screens where people could just drop by at any given time to spend a good two-hour journey exploring their sexual voyeurism. And to sit in darkness has never been that good.

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More than three decades later, when sex had become scarce in films these days, Fenton Bailey and Randy Barbato brought back this sexual journey of porn industry in its heyday of 1970s in one of the most polite documentaries on sex ever, Inside Deep Throat. I guess I have to mention the word ‘polite’, considering that the initial film was X-rated and the documentary in discussion here managed to get an R-rating.
You go figure out yourself what has been missing.

Even then, the documentary serves like a comprehensive study of how porn industry arose in Hollywood in the 70s, and played a part in cultural revolution that defined 70s as sexual awakening era in the US. Porn has never been looked this noble and respected, I may say, thanks to the crips understanding of Bailey and Barbato who often depicted 1970s cultural hype in their previous works like the harrowing The Eyes of Tammy Faye.

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Surely a 90-minute duration will not quench the thirst to even get a deeper peek towards porn industry, yet the film has done more than enough to make us noticed to not neglect the existence of this love-it-or-loathe-it alternative entertainment. Some scenes might be overwhelming if you are not used to watch porn flicks (oh c’mon, internet is just right on your side!), yet there are times when you just scratch in your heads, amused by the comments from the makers of this film.

Well, truth is always stranger than fiction, if you wish to settle for fictionalized story on porn industry, go rent Boogie Nights.

But then, no other fictional feature films can match to become the most profitable film of all time, like Deep Throat.

Inside Deep Throat

 
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Posted by on 06/01/2005 in English, Film

 

Janji Joni

Joko Anwar knows a thing or two about films, and for sure, he’s having a good time in it.

Why? Because to him, a film has to please himself, which eventually will lead to pleasing the audience.

Indeed, the joy was infectious in his directorial debut here, a film that enhances his liking and expertise about the film study itself. Yet, the premise seems fresh, for the film differs itself from any other film-about-film in terms of the angle it chooses to base the story on. This time, Joko cleverly avoids the usual overused story of film-making process and its chaotic madness surrounding it. Instead, Joko dares to narrate his film from one side we often overlook in our cinema-going experience: a film roll carrier.

We may cheer for the refreshing take on how rare the blue collar story being brought up to be the center of attention in a world often associated with glitz and glamour, yet the question that prevails is whether the presence of the film roll carrier has its own distinction to make this film different from any other films.

There can be no definite answer for the query as we follow the film and immediately be charmed by some strong premise of eye catching opening scenes and a few comical early scenes. The story then follows the adventure of Joni (played by the surprisingly beefy Nicholas Saputra), who works as the film roll carrier and on one eventful day, his bag containing the film roll is stolen. Strange and illogical as it may seem, this is the playful time of Joko in disobeying the rule of chronological order of time, instead filling the screen with larger-than-life experiences of Joni in meeting up with some distinguishable characters who often pose threats to steal the spotlight from the main character, Joni, himself.

But really, who cares?

Nicholas, who seems to be at ease playing the title role here, looks enjoying a good time to be surrounded by great number of more talented cast. If those actors have to be reduced to be having mediocre presence, then this has got to be something worth sacrificing in order to keep up the light atmosphere of the film. Particularly Rachel Maryam, one of the better actors in Indonesian film scene who is not given a chance to develop her character to be either likeable or be a villain. Instead, her presence suggests that this film has many disposable statures that provided being removed, the film would still go on well.

Janji Joni

All in all, the key to enjoy the film is to set aside the deafening soundtrack (something that Joko still needs to work on more), and to furthest extent, save the cynicism of endless debate on how an Indonesian film should be, Joko gives us something worth noting:

When was the last time we had a good, genuine laugh in cinema watching a film made in Indonesia by Indonesians?

 
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Posted by on 05/30/2005 in English, Film

 

truth is …

i miss you in every sense of missing the one i love.

 
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Posted by on 05/30/2005 in English

 

Do We Forget to Rest?

7 hari seminggu, 5 hari kerja, 2 hari istirahat.

Istirahat?

Yang ada biasanya malah terlalu semangat ngerjain segala macem hal yang tertunda, yang udah jadi impian dari hari Senen.
Akhirnya?
Kurang istirahat lagi, capek lagi, males kerja lagi.

Let’s see.
Jumat malem kemaren saya udah buru-buru keluar dari kantor buat ngejar press screening nya “Eros”, film pendeknya Wong Kar Wai, Steven Soderbergh ama Michelangelo Antonioni, saking buru-burunya sampe harus berani resiko naek taksi di tengah jam macet orang pulang kerja. Kelar nonton, langsung pulang, cuci baju, nyetrika dan ngutak ngatik komputer baru sambil masih bingung ngutak ngatik komputer malem.

Sabtu pagi harus dimulai dengan lupa janji meeting karena musti nemenin adik kelas SMA yang dateng kesini, dan ini berarti nganterin jalan-jalan a la turis. Padahal malemnya masih ada latian IAF yang untungnya deket rumah, dan kalo dah latian ini, diakhiri dengan nongkrong di warung pojoknya kampung londo. Sialnya lagi, koq ya saya ga gampang tidur kalo dah kecapekan. Solusinya? Bersih-bersih kamar, rombak rak buku! Baru deh tidur, tapi masih kebayang kalo …

Minggu adalah hari upik abu! Kelar nyapu, ngepel, setrika, ngopi, langsung berangkat ke warehouse sale-nya MPH Bookstore nun jauh di Expo yang deket ama Changi Airport itu. Setelah leyeh-leyeh sejenak, trus langsung direcokin kabar,

“Nopal sayaaaannngg, aku punya kabar gembira untukmu” housemate saya senyum-senyum sambil megang wajan
“Apaaaaaaannn?” sambil masang sepatu siap pergi
“Minggu ini elo dapet kehormatan bersiin kamar mandi ama toilet yaaa”
“Maaaakkkk! Ntar maleeeemmmmm!”

Hoooaaaaaaaa…

Here I am, pulang dari kiasu ngantri beli buku, bersih2 kamar mandi, dan dalam sejam lagi, udah diajakin dinner Komang (minus Acay yang lagi mudik). Not to mention that I was trapped into temptation of borrowing 4 DVDs from Esplanade Library yesterday … I know, it is addictive, and I’ve been an addict since the library opened 3 years ago.

Kalo udah gini, ngga bisa ngeluh juga kan?

Paling-paling kecapekan, or make it ekstra kecapekan, karena saya dan beberapa orang temen yang saya tau pun bukanlah tipe orang-orang yang bisa dengan enak tidur cukup selama weeknites. Let alone sleeping, lha wong pulang kantor aja musti ngeluyur dulu, even if that means going to … supermarket alone! Hihihihihi … Ngga banget yah?

Dan kecapekan ini kadang-kadang yang ngga terlalu kita perhatiin, baru kerasa kalo misalnya lagi trekking di Tioman kaya Acay minggu kemaren. Ngaku nya sih ga capek, tapi kalo pas ngumpul-ngumpul, ngumpet di pojokan tidur yah? Hahahahah!

Anyway, ini emang postingan ga penting, tapi cuman heran aja, apa iya kita terlalu sibuk grabbing as many things as possible, and doing it so much so to the extent that we often neglect the importance of REST?

 
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Posted by on 05/29/2005 in Bahasa Indonesia

 

one’s perspective.

how do we begin to realize that we are fully committed to a relationship of ours?

when we start seeing our world from our partner’s point of view, unknowingly.

(billie holiday – you don’t know what love is/until you’ve learned the meaning of the blues/until you’ve loved a love you’ve had to lose/you don’t know what love is …)

 
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Posted by on 05/27/2005 in English

 

suddenly …

… i remember,
once your presence mattered.

how are you?

you were there on that foggy sunday
existence may differ, yet the jolt still blew me away

from gestures to smiles
from glances to laughs
from whisks to mirks

how are you?

i haven’t gotten a chance to tell the truth
of how often i forget you

not because it wasn’t pure
it’s just because i can’t have you.

cheesy as it might be
i can’t seem to stop whispering in a glee,

how are you?

how are you?

 
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Posted by on 05/26/2005 in English

 

Take a Break.

Dear bloggers,

So many stories to tell, so much feeling to share.

But then, as blogging is dependent on the existence of PERSONAL computer, therefore allow me to withdraw myself for a while, secara …

LAPTOP GUE WAFAT!

Nauval’s Toshiba Satellite. RIP. 1999-2005.

Too early to be buried, too late to be taken care of.

However, kalo ada yang tau proses data recovery, then let’s hope that my life is not going six-feet under with it.

😦

 
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Posted by on 05/25/2005 in Bahasa Indonesia

 

(and i can’t think of any titles, i’m too thrilled!)


alright, here i am again. i can’t keep my excitement inside very well …

Give me a chance to catch my breath
Cause I’m in a state of awe
Guess miracles do never cease
For we’re back together now

Pardon me please if I pinch myself
So to know this is not a dream
As I reminisce the love we shared
And the pain there was between

Look at the clouds in the sky
They seem so happy now
Look at the sun, feel its rays
With such a smiling face
Maybe we can’t but maybe we can
With the love that we’re feeling inside
Share it with all the world and see each heart
Kiss lonely good-bye

let the countdown begins. it’s just a moment away …

 
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Posted by on 05/20/2005 in English

 

Summer Storm

When something considered as ‘unusual’ is brought up, and that ‘unusuality’ strikes our attention, we may forget the flaws it may bring.

I can’t help comparing the film above to this particular documentary film called Capturing the Friedmans, although upon first impression, you may ask:

“How can you compare a gay-themed drama to a raw documentary on pedophilia?”

Without any doubt the two films differ greatly from one another in terms of content, but if we look carefully towards the latter, we will see how the documentary has been unbelievably polished and carefully staged to soften otherwise disturbing theme on one particular sexual behavior. There is no a clear stand on the film maker’s point of view which may prompt the audience to be sided with certain perspective, the disturbing theme is presented as a matter-of-fact manner, with a little touch-up on dramatic movements.

Such a fashion also propels Arisan to stardom of popularity among its niche market, and now, the similar path is also followed by Summer Storm.

Summer Storm

Definitely made to please its own intended audience, the film relies heavily on visual presence of its actors who manage to force us in our seat until the credit rolls out. Apart from that, the story of coming-out-as-gay-trapped-in-a-straight-man-world slids nicely like a taste of lollipop melting in our mouth, without leaving any impression or remembrance.

Yet, like the sweet lollipop who enthralls us with its eye-catching colorful wrap, so does the film in turning itself into one predictable set-up. A guy falls in love with his fellow teammate who wants to embark on a sexual encounter with his girlfriend, and the whole journey of sexual discovery seems to be disposable at any given time by the gorgeous parade of good looking Caucasian actors basking under the sun during the summer season.

And when the summer ends, characters have transformed themselves to be more contented individuals, the life-changing problems are left behind easily as mere dust in the wind, we finish watching one watchable film, we can only wonder:

an ordinary theme presented differently, or an unusual story brought up plainly?

Summer Storm

What a waste to the latter.

 
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Posted by on 05/18/2005 in English, Film