i thought, i knew what i had to do.
i thought, since i’ve been here before, i knew what would lie ahead.
i thought, everything would repeat.
i thought, everything worked out fine.
i thought, i could manage everything.

but i kept saying “i thought”, because the idea stayed on this tiny little brain of mine.

and for once, i’ve never been this greatly worried before.

pray us luck.
wish us well.

for once, the end seems terrifyingly distant.

i am scared 😦