Isn’t it funny, when we grow older, we always long for a space on our own, yet at the same time, we tend to get insecure with being alone?
Consider the former first.
Some people, or should I say parents, have this great ability in bearing their children to live on their own as soon as the necessity arises.
Hmmm … can I consider myself as a lucky one here? 🙂
It was both a mutual decision made between me and my folks that I had to live by myself when I started enrolling my study in high school, and what followed was the addiction to make every single decision by myself, to take care of everything by these two tiny hands and feet, and to adapt and perceive new occurences by filters I created on my own.
So much so of the addiction to the extent that it may not be easy to adjust being together with my family again, yet, coming from the similar background as myself, my folks understand very well that their only son badly needs to be freed!
Here I am, it’s been ten years.
And it surely has been ten years of not realizing the danger of the latter part. Or actually, being trapped in the comfort zone of achieving the former?
Again, my writings selalu tak berpangkal tak berujung, it’s a matter of blurting out my thoughts and whatever
My dearie Onny,
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“Tell me about it yah, Pal! Semua orang udah nggendong bayi, gue masih maen laki!”
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“Nie’, isn’t it funny, makin kita gede, makin kita pengen idup sendiri. But at the same time, berasa ngga sih makin insecure with being single?”
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“So, ada rencana balik for good?”
– Ella Fitzgerald is belting her rendition of How Long Has This Been Going On? And it couldn’t be more perfect than this –
Nauval Yazid & His Words. 